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Idea pasal nak tulis benda ni dah terjelma 2-3 hari yang lepas. Sekadar bermain-main di minda sahaja. Aku memang teringin laam dah nak tulis pasal benda ni. Benda ni memang sangat memberi tekanan dalam hidup aku dan aku rasa kepada orang lain juga. Benda ni pasal kerja la. Bukan la nak cerita pasal kerja tu sendiri tetapi kepada pencapaian seseorang dalam hidup la. Tapi bila bercakap pasal pencapaian hidup ni kebanyakan orang akan mengaitkannya dengan kerja, karier, pendapatan dan lain-lain perkataan yang ada kaitan dengan pencapaian yang bersifat duniawi ni la. Ok.. dalam entri ni aku nak cerita segala yang terpendam dalam sanubari aku sebagai seorang manusia yang hidup pada zaman ini. Kalau diimbas balik semasa aku kanak-kanak, aku punya cita-cita yang pelbagai. Antara yang pernah aku ungkapkan.. Masa aku masih mentah dalam umur 2-3 tahun tatkala baru boleh bercakap, aku ditanya oleh saudara mara. Saudara : timah besaq nanti nak jadi apa ? Timah : Be...

Hai korang.. Aku kini sudah menjadi seorang yang hampir sempoi dalam penulisan. Perasan tak ?? kalau dulu di awal penulisan aku seorang yang begitu « corteous » dalam berbahasa namun kini aku berubah menjadi entah apa-apa. Aku ni ada masalah split personality ke ha ?? entah lah aku pun tak pasti. Hmmm. Aku kekadang seronok baca blog orang yang ayat2nya sempoi dan melucukan tapi aku tak reti nak tulis macam tu. Mungkin itu adalah sebahagian daripada bakat semulajadi. Aku tak ada bakat. Apa aku nak cerita hari ni?? Aku semalam terfikir nak tulis pasal kerja aku tapi tak ada mood pulak nak buat ayat pasal kerja ni. Aku ni sekarang tengah tension sbb kerja aku pending ni. Ya la.. aku kerja kan dalam bidang media, so memang medium la. Kena deal dengan 2 pihak. Kita jadi orang tengah. So bila ada masalah dengan satu pihak, kerja kita dengan satu pihak lagi pun pending lah. Hmm.. aku plak cuma kuli je kat sini. Nak buat keputusan sendiri pun tak boleh. Ha… ni ta...

hi allz.. the meaning of life is when we can give something to others. that is some meaning of life to me. it is no use to live by being individualistic and selfish. I admit that I am not as good as others in term of giving. because I think that i am not so affordable to give. me also lack. but i want to be a giver. it such a long time i have think about this. i want to donate all my organs and tissues for those who need after my death. i have filled the form today which can be downloaded from this site  http://www.mst.org.my/donorreg.html . then you need to post it to National Transplant Resource Center. I hope I can bring some hopes and happiness in life of the people who are suffered by this decision. I will never regret. The Gift of Life is Ours to Give

Assalamualaikum... its now 1.05 p.m, and I'm here in front of my pc write something in my blog. a new looks blog. with orangeful color... so cheer.. what I am going to nag today?? haa... actually I want to express about my feeling. can I? I feel guilty to one of new friend. Actually I've known her about less than 2 month ago. I admit she's so cheerful, kind-hearted, friendly. but i couldn't make close with her. because the difference of personalities. i am solid quiet, so passive with low voice. but she have a loud voice. talking a lot. i cannot adapt to talk with her nicely. i dont know what to talk with her.. dear you.. I am really sorry for undelivered friendship. 

Astaghfirullahalazim.... ya Allah... ampunilah dosa hambaMu ini. Hamba memang hina dan leka. Seringkali hamba melakukan dosa namun Kau tetap mengizinkan aku untuk melihat dunia ini sekali lagi. Ya Allah... sudah malu untukku berjanji kerana sudah untuk ke berapa kali aku mengungkapnya namun seringkali ku mungkiri... Ya Allah jernihkan lah kembali hatiku yang keruh ini agar dapat ku teguk kembali kasihMu yang pernah aku miliki....

Ohhh… quite stress… now the job is pending because of some technical problem. What should I do, I have already followed up but the other parties did not take the action immediately. Ufff… how if my boss ask to me?? I also have told to another agency that the material was ready… hmmm…hopes everything will run smoothly without any problem. Ya Allah please help me. I am worried. Allhamdulillah… Aku rasa macam nak berehat satu hari dan aku nak buat planning untuk aku punya kerja sekarang. Aku tak boleh nak plan apa sebab sekarang ni kepala sangat pusing. Nak buat indoor marketing pun x boleh2 lagi sbb x prepare apa. X follow up dengan klien pun. Lepas ni kena buat planning yang mantap dulu. Uhh… risau betul aku nanti kekalau bos Tanya progress aku punya marketing. Ye la even my boss doesn’t insist me to do those things but I feel responsible in that as a direction by consent. Is it correct phrase? Not sure what’s the real meaning but wrote regards to my understanding. I know that they ...

I feel sad today… because I miss my mother. My mother came to stay with me for 3 days. She just went back to our home yesterday. I and my brother sent her at Pudu Sentral yesterday. Before she went back, we did visit to KLCC and after that we shopped at Jalan Masjid India. We really enjoy because we can spent time together before my mother went back. But after I get back to my rent house, I felt very sad because my mother is not there anymore. I kept looking at the place she sat, the things she used, the clothes she wore. And I started to cry. =(. And till now I’m still crying because I miss her. After I return today, there will be no more cooks from mother. She will not going to open door for me anymore. My mother left her sambal ikan bilis in fridge. It will make me more miss her. I actually hard to move all the things she folded. It’s quite a long time I don’t feel like this. However I feel happy because at least I have made her cheer even a little. And insyaallah I will go back hom...

my mother came to my rent house... yesterday.. stay with me for 3 days probably.. seriouSLY...i admit that i am not good enough to be a daughter... because deeeeeep in my heart i felt troubled by this... oh....poor my mom to have a daughter like me.... i am sorry mother.... i did not meant to be like that but i dont know where this feeling coming from.. is it came from my broken heart?? the heart of a girl who had been abandoned with love.. abused by the cruelty of love... the unfair of treats. i am like a human with damage heart.. the environment around me turn me to this condition. who should i blame for?? i am really tortured with all this.. mom dad... i try to be a good daughter, and this is the only good i can afford.. i am sorry but deeeeeeep again in my heart, i always miss, love, and respect to my beloved parents.... Ya Allah ya tuhanku.... di hadapanMu nanti .. apakah bait perbicaraan yang akan dilangsungkan mengenai hal ini?? adakah aku akan disiksa kerana kederhakaan ini??

kini ... bersosialisasi dengan orang - orang baru ... dulu orang daripada generasi lain. sekarang generasi lain. nervous pada mulanya tapi sekarang ok je . dulu rasa takut mungkin diorang " kerek " tapi Alhamdulillah , ok .. boleh masuk . macam kawan . tapi ada benda perlu dirahsiakan kerana tahap inferiority aku yang begitu tinggi . aku cuba untuk menyokong u all. as long as u all can jaga hati aku baik 2 sebab hati aku mudah pecah . Fragile!Please handle with care. kalau dah pecah , maaflah .. i will go..away.. maaf sebab terpaksa cakap putar belit . i xnak tipu sebenarnya tapi .. i terpaksa . when the time come, i'll tell all the truth.. one more thing... welcome to my life. another one new... in my office.. will coming soon.. hai . welcome to my life... and for those who may concerned, i try to be the best for you all.... as best as possible okay.. and i hope we can work together with peace no war thank you

Kadang kala hidup ni stress sangat Kadang kala hidup ni happy Waktu stress tu , dunia rasa gelap, rasa macam down sangat, Rasa macam nak menyerah dan pasrah Rasa macam putus asa sangat2, rasa macam nak tinggalkan semuanya dan pergi berlalu.. Tinggal begitu Lebih- lebih lagi kalau xde orang yang support Lagilah sedih dan down Namun sebenarnya kita ni adakalanya saja nak menyeksa diri Memang sengaja biarkan kekabutan tu menjengah tanpa berusaha menghalangnya Ya Allah berikan aku kekuatan….

minggu ni asyik mengantuk jer. knapa ye? yg peliknya tiap malam tido awal. bangun lambat. dalam bas tido. kat office pon tido jugak. hmmm.. petang ni lepas balik keje nak terus ke Shah Alam bertemu keluargaku. emak ada di sana menjaga abang yang sedang sakit kerana kemalangan jalan raya. Innalillahiwainnailaaihiraajiun.. aku pun tak tahula apa nak jadi dengan abangku yang sorang ni.... dah banyak kali dia jadi mcam tu... Ya Allah.... aku sungguh terkilan... bukannya aku tak kesian atau sayang dia tapi dia sendiri tak fikir pasal dia.. tipu la kalau aku cakap aku tak marah kan dia. Aku sangat berharap suatu hari nanti dia akan berubah menjadi seorang yang berguna. sememangnya hubungan kami adik beradik begitu longgar. Aku ingin hubungan kami 1 keluarga terikat mesra dan kukuh. Namun ......